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Oh! How I Miss Writing!

Assalammualaikum dan hai~

Habuk dekat blog ni bukan tahap inci dah..mahunya sekaki. Busy kononnya. Biasalah...kerja di office menimbun-nimbun. Balik rumah penat, family time lagi. I've hardly spend time n my creative outlets - no sewing, no blog writing, let alone reading a book. Adinda pun terabai sendu. Until recently, prepping for Zain's birthday small get-together, bolehlah berkraf tangan. Lepas tu sakit pinggang, LOL.

I have tons to share, but time is a scarce resource for me nowadays...but isn't it so for everyone else as well?

Marilah menyeru semangat mengupdate blog untuk tatapan anak masa hadapan.


Life's Little Reminders

Assalammualaikum and hi all!

I'm going to acknowledge the fact that I have been ignoring this blog for the longest time, but who cares? LOL. You know, I'm busy with this thing called life. Priorities, people! But I love writing, so here I am. Just needed a break from the hectic-ness of it all and reflect on myself.

The other day I went to the business office lots nearby my house to get something ordered for Adinda. When I return back to my car, I sat in front of the steering wheel, cooling myself under the gushing air from the A/C turned on at full blast. Then I saw this gentleman...he was carrying a stack of cardboard boxes on top of his head. He went to one trash bin to the other looking for more boxes, I would assume, to be sent to the recycling centre, and earn himself some money.

It's easy to pity him.

But I believe, more importantly, when we saw this kind of situation, remember it's Allah's little reminders to look back on all the blessings that we have been bestowed upon. How lucky am I that I get to sit in a car in stead of scavenging for boxes under the scorching sun? Or how lucky am I to even own a car? Or how lucky am I to have a stable job (I have to say a good one that pays well)? The list goes on...

I believe that if we have to compare our life with others, compare to those who is less fortunate as opposed to those who seems to have a better life. We may not know amidst all the things appears better when we look at others, they are facing Allah's tests in some other way. Even wealth can be a test.

I am guilty of whining an awful lot about my job recently. So I am thankful to be sent these little reminders every now and then. So let us be more thankful for the things that we have.

It is not my intention for this post to be "tunjuk baik", just sharing my thought ;)


Slipped Disc

Assalammualaikum dan hai~

So...I've been diagnosed with slipped disc. It's only minor though, Alhamdulillah.

It started during my pregnancy 3 years back. Normal lah kan time pregnant, sakit pinggang. I though the pain would go away after I gave birth.

I was wrong.

The pain was still there during my confinement days. Sakit sampai ke peha, macam ada satu jalur muscle ni yang tegang je. Masa tu ingatkan sebab breastfeeding, tapi rupanya bukan. And the pain lingered. Worsened whenever  that time of the month is approaching. Checked with my kakak-kakak colleagues, they said it's normal and usually takes two years for the pain to dissapear. Fuiyooh, lamanya kena tahan sakit. So, tahanlah.

Kadang-kadang sakitnya, suruh Kanda tenyeh je dengan tumit kaki. Until last week, the pain became excruciating. Jalan pun senget-senget. 2 malam tak boleh tidur sebab sakit sangat. Sebenarnya, time tengah tulis ni pun pukul 1.40 pagi - tak boleh tidur sebab sakit. First night, sapu heat rub, baru boleh tidur. Second night onwards, tidur pakai ice pack. Sampai sekarang, the fifth night, ice pack is my new BFF.

So last Friday, pagi tu memang sakit sangat nak bangun dari katil pun. Kanda asked me to get a proper check (daku memula nak pergi klinik biasa je). He insisted I went to see a specialist. He took the day off to accompany me for the check up. And so off we went. Nasib baik boleh walk-in. Jumpa Dr. Mahamud Musman, explained my problem. Dia suruh buat X-ray dan MRI. Ah sudah!

X-ray tu dah biasa buat lah kan. Tapi MRI? Nervous! First time kena buat. Lepas X-Ray, terus masuk bilik yang ada mesin MRI tu. The scan itself tak sakit. Yang sakitnya sebab I have to lay on a flat surface with my burning back pain for one hour, without moving. Kalau gerak (which I accidentally did), kena scan balik T.T Sakit! By the time the last scan to (4 scans in total) I was in tears and needed help to get up.

Went back to the hospital after Friday Prayer to get the result. Dr. cakap my L4 and L5 (Lumbar part dekat back bone) ada bulging dan dikira sebagai slipped disc. Lumbar ni bahagian lower back, antara pinggang dan pinggul. No wonder la sakit bertahun-tahun. Sebelum ni ingatkan muscle strain ke ape.

So the Dr. referred me for physiotherapy sessions for a couple of week.

I can only go next week. Tak dapat perlepasan untuk start my therapy session minggu ni. Banyak due date minggu ni. So kena tanggung sakit ni  lama sikit. Allah, ease this for me...